Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I am in sleep-training hell. Over the course of the last 3 1/2 years we have tried every trick in the book. "Happiest Baby on the Block" shhhhsh-ing; white noise; patting, cooing, swaddling till, ohhhhh, 10 months...! All of it. My husband and I are not the most consistent or persistent of people in terms of schedules for our kids so we often tried things for a certain amount of time and then sort of let things lay. But now, with three monsters underfoot, life is almost unmanageable without a rigorous schedule for naps and nighttime so here we are, fish out of water again. How can it be that, after almost 4 years and 3 attemps to "do it right," we find ourselves in this position of having to learn and re-learn the most basic components of raising children?!
Don't get me wrong, it's not like I think we should be experts. But it's almost hilarious to me, in my current tenure of a mom, to ge Googling things like "how much should a 5 month old sleep." How quickly we forget! Just another reminder that every single baby, and every single situation is differnt, unique, and, let's face it, challenging.
At this point, I can see the light at the end of my child-bearing tunnel. I am 99.999999 % positive I will not be having any other kids (I am not so foolish as to say I am 100% sure of anything, ever). My eldest is a person now, no longer a baby. My husband and I have firmly established and buttressed our lives and identities post-baby. But I haven't gotten consistent, uninterrupted sleep in over a year and a half. On days when I get something resembling decent sleep I can tangibly feel my brain working better. As such, I am going to resort to all caps in relation to the next couple days (weeks?) of sleep-training hell and say BRING IT ON, I am so ridiculously ready to have full mental functioning back, to be able to round this bend in the tunnel, take care of my kids, and re-enter the world of the not pregnant and not looking to be, to get real sleep and know I can expect real sleep from here on out, my family being complete.
SOOOOOO, if any of you guys have any advice for a mom of 3 in the midst of some hard-core sleep training PLEASE let me know. I and my sanity will thank you...!